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I have never started a blog because of FEAR... Fear of so many things: fear of the unknown, fear of being judged, fear of having nothing to write, fear of having too much to write, fear of sharing too much of my inner self, and most of all -fear of not doing it just right. Another that goes along with that is fear of spending too much time trying to make it just right. What if I spell something wrong or put it in the wrong context or the grammar is wrong or my sentences aren't sentences? Well as you can see from the previous "sentences" I have decided I can't care about stupid little things like sentence structure or I will never be able to start a blog. My other problem is that I want it to look just right too. There are so many things I just don't even attempt because I am sure it's not going to turn out just the way I imagined. Why clean the house when no matter how hard I try it will never look the way I want it to? I am working so hard to overcome this attitude and maybe this blog will help... or hurt who knows. Maybe it will just give me something to do that I enjoy so I will continue to avoid my responsibilities. I hope not. Anywho... I have now officially started a blog. Not sure what kinds of things I will write. Guess I will just have to trust in myself.